"CONFIDENCE"

 What a month March was! the theme for the month was my confidence, I've never been the most confident person in the world, some people who know me may find that really hard to believe considering I used to manage brick and block factories and I'm now working in a sales environment, but its always been something that I've struggled with and this month any confidence I had seemed to flow out of me in every area of my life, I struggled at work I struggled I'n my personal life and eventually I struggled at poker!

The graph above is my play on Titanpoker upto a couple of days ago 8,461 hands logged since03/03/2011 as you can see I got off to a flying start and then had a bit of a "cooler" and then I grinded back up to +433 big blinds then all of a sudden I felt as though any luck I had went out the window with my confidence and before I knew it I was -316bb's a swing of almost 750bb's! and this happened in just 2000 hands FML.

Below is the hand histories for 2 hands that had a big bearing on one of the sessions I played.

Hand 1, I definately shouldnt have checked on the flop and should have bet into him but lacking confidence I fail to put pressure on the villian (who has completely missed the flop) and gave him a free card and the turn gives him the card he needs and he has a set of 7's and I'm dominated and he's away with my dough.

Hand 2, once again I've got AQo, when the flop come down unknown to me the villain has the nut straight and I'm beaten from the offset, however due to me showing weakness hand 1 this time I'm overaggressive and this is just playing into villains hands luckily for me he's a shortstacker and doesn't have the chips at the table to clean me out... phew!

Sad thing is those two hands alone led me to make a loss on the session


 HAND 1
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NL Holdem $0.10(BB) Replayer Game#2701960261

FirstGold ($8.25)
cashjunk1 ($11.74)
DjinnD ($9.98)
lowrence ($12.20)
marenghi10 ($12.55)

FirstGold posts (SB) $0.05
cashjunk1 posts (BB) $0.10

Dealt to FirstGold Qh  As 
DjinnD raises to $0.40
fold, fold,
FirstGold raises to $1
fold,
DjinnD calls $0.60
FLOP ($2.10) Qc  Kd  8s 
FirstGold checks
DjinnD checks
TURN ($2.10) Qc  Kd  8s  7s 
FirstGold bets $1.57
DjinnD calls $1.57
RIVER ($5.24) Qc  Kd  8s  7s  Qs 
FirstGold bets $2.62
DjinnD raises to $5.60
FirstGold raises to $5.68 (AI)
DjinnD calls $0.08
FirstGold shows Qh  As 
(Pre 45%, Flop 91.2%, Turn 0.0%)

DjinnD shows 7h  7c 
(Pre 55%, Flop 8.8%, Turn 100.0%)

DjinnD wins $15.50

HAND 2
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NL Holdem $0.10(BB) Replayer Game#2701943375

FirstGold ($6)
superpolesasha ($7.83)
hitpokram ($16.51)
PotatoJunkey ($10.15)
broston ($2.85)

FirstGold posts (SB) $0.05
superpolesasha posts (BB) $0.10

Dealt to FirstGold Qs  Ac 
fold, fold,
broston raises to $0.30
FirstGold raises to $0.70
fold,
broston calls $0.40
FLOP ($1.50) Qd  Jd  As 
FirstGold bets $0.75
broston calls $0.75
TURN ($3) Qd  Jd  As  9d 
FirstGold bets $2.25
broston calls $1.40 (AI)
RIVER ($5.80) Qd  Jd  As  9d  7s 
broston shows Tc  Kd 
(Pre 37%, Flop 82.2%, Turn 90.9%)

FirstGold shows Qs  Ac 
(Pre 63%, Flop 17.8%, Turn 9.1%)

broston wins $5.42

So for the last few days I've hardly played poker at all just trying to clear my head and get some confidence, thankfully I'm feeling better about a lot of things in my life and have been doing a lot of studying, so tomorrow I'm going to play about 1000 hands and lets see how it goes...